Anxiety,Customer Service and maxi dresses!

I realised yesterday having originally wanted to start my blog about the perils of being a teacher working full time and having a child, I haven't actually talked much about my role as a teacher at all.  Obviously this is because it is the Summer holidays and I am currently mostly being a 'mum' rather than a teacher!  But last night I had my first anxiety dream about school.  It wasn't actually a dream.  I was trying to get to sleep when I had that awful buzzing feeling begin in my brain.   I get it a lot when I am working, my brain starts buzzing with all the jobs that I am supposed to get done for school and I begin feeling these waves of anxiety.  It is worse when you are in that half awake half asleep mode and doesn't feel so bad when I am fully awake but I had it for the first time this holiday.  My eyes suddenly snapped open and I thought 'Did I give my new class their holiday homework?'.  I - still in my waking state - can't remember if I did or not?  'Does it really matter?', I hear you ask, well actually in this case it does as I have a trainee teacher in my class next year and I asked him to base his first lesson on the children's homework!!  I'm pretty sure I did explain it to them but I just can't remember.  These are the sorts of anxious thoughts about work that I have when I am trying to get to sleep.  My brain was then of course on a roll and I began thinking of all the other things that I need to do.  However, now that I have a child I feel I am more able to try to ignore those thoughts.  When I am awake that is.  I'm totally enjoying this summer with Heidi and I have vowed not to think or do any school work till the last week of the holiday.  I may not be that much fun to live with in the last week of the holiday because no doubt I'll go into school to prepare and then realise I've left it all too late but there we go!!

I was thinking how fulfilling it is running round the lounge with your daughter laughing and squealing, jumping up and down on the sofa, scribbling with crayons and actually enjoying it, not so fun when she puked up all her morning milk all over herself! Poor little thing.  She's absolutely fine now, I think it was a combination of jumping around, having had formula instead of cows milk this morning (we ran out) and possibly ingesting the end of a crayon.  The weird thing was my reaction, because she was in her highchair and contained I just kind of looked at her not knowing what to do first, get her out, get a cloth or what and she just looked at me too.  She wasn't crying, it was very strange.  As obviously if she'd have been out of the highchair I would have cuddled her immediately.  I turned into a bit of a mute!!  Anyway, as I said, she's all fine now.

I actually had quite a productive morning this morning - to my surprise.  Without wanting to jinx things, I think I have ordered the save the date cards....Although of course it didn't go smoothly.  I drove down there, knowing that if I rang them to ask if my proof was ready they would say 'No'.  I thought my presence would hopefully hassle them into work.  When I arrived she said 'Sorry it's not ready'.  I was pleased with my assertiveness, I responded with, 'But it's only one sheet'.  It then transpired that they weren't even able to print the proof on card anyway and they would have only printed in on normal paper! Which of course I have already got from crappy 'Cartridge World' and could also have done myself.  I then responded with 'Fine I'll just order them then!'.  Then they told me I hadn't emailed the proof to them in the correct size? This was baffling as even crappy 'Cartidge World' had managed to print them or at least resize them without asking.  It always surprises me the length of conversation you have about something that is entirely unnecessary.  They kept going on about how I'd sent it the wrong size - FINE I don't care! The main thing is: CAN you resize it? You're a printers for Gods sake!!
Obviously I knew they could and to cut a long story short they should be ready when I get back from holiday but I just wanted to share that story as I know how frustrating getting simple things done can be!  I must also add they are not exactly how I want them or how I envisaged them in them in my head but sometimes you just have to get things done! (Not the design, the paper I might add).
RANT OVER but sometimes you just gotta do it.

I also went to Natwest at 9.30am with Heidi with the intention of paying the accommodation deposit for the Italian wedding and after standing there for 5 minutes while their 'system loaded' actually managed it without a hitch.  Although most likely will go spectacularly wrong while I'm away next week, but for now success!

Holiday shopping in Bluewater today.  On my list are:
2 maxi dresses, flip flops, Dorothy Perkins super skinny jeans (Thanks for the recommendation Dr Jools) and some intensive conditioner for my bleached hair!!
On Heidi's list:
Some more shorts, a light sleep suit and a new pair of shoes.

I may have also sorted Ebay Paypal out....but we'll see.

Favourite today is Fave celeb in a maxi dress and it's gotta be the gorgeous Kate Hudson.

 Workingschoolmum x